Diary diary.. this is my second day coming back from feel camp, I feel so tired and down.. for the past 6 day field camp never been eating good wan, even slp also only 3 to 4 hr of sleep everyday. I miss shi hui so much.. I even look at the star and telling my self I wanna marry her tml. But alot of thing dun come what I wan to.. the day I book out, I didn't see shi hui msg for thur and fri.. even she tell me she go bath, the hour sent to me is not tally, when I wanna check her hp, she wanna master reset because she told me her hp spoil. It been so hard for me to treat is as real and nothing happen, since I enlisted to army, she had totally change alot alot.. more mature.. although is in a good way she think, even I think it is a good thing but she had slowly put our relationship behind her job career.. even we meet up on fri or sat, she always so tire that she slp very early.. I know she is very tire so I didn't woke her up.. but I know our relationship is getting down the slope.. we really have lesser time to meet and talk, even after 6 days of field camp without talking to me on the phone, I dun feel she miss me alot.. I really feel so heart pain.. yesterday she even told me if I can't accept her, conclusion is to be fren, she ask me do I able to accept it.. that I think really hurt me very deeply.. I am really worry the history will happen again.. today when I gave her the balloon, she dun seem appreciate too.. she also going to go over sae for her job, she may go with her boss only too.. I know I must not resist her from her job.. but I also dun wish to see the relationship go down the road.. diary.. I am scare to face it again..